Clearer

This whole year has been well umm something. I didn’t really know what to expect moving to Kalamazoo. I was excited but also honestly a little upset I wasn’t going to Australia. I Have been questioning for quite some time why I am here and what was the purpose of me being here this year. Because I found out pretty early in my internship that this career wasn’t for me. Months and months of prayer I think the revelation of why I am here has started to come to me.

If I would have gone to Australia, I would have had great community surrounding me, would have had solid growth spiritually and experienced some incredible things and memories. Honestly, that would have been the easy route…God doesn’t always give us the easy route. This route has been challenging and I feel it has prepared me more for my life 10+ years down the road. I still have been able to grow, experience some cool things and be surrounded by some wonderful people, just have had to work harder at those things. I wanted to contend for revival in Australia and everywhere else we were gonna go ya know, see people get touched and healed by God and like we need revivalists here in America too. I was like a firecracker that wanted to explode, I wanted to go to the nations and see people experience God. Like I said earlier going to Australia would have been easy, I would probably have seen those things but being here has been more challenging with seeing these things but so awesome when they do.

For instance, last week I was disciplining this kid at this coffee shop and like we finished and he left but I felt like I was supposed to tell the worker there a word. So I told her it and she started shaking and crying. The Lord really touched her and He kept telling me stuff while I was praying over her and it all made sense to her PTL. Was so awesome man, we had a great conversation about things she was going through and dreams that she had abandoned that the Lord wanted her to step back in. It was just so good, I haven’t been back to that shop but hope she’s working next time I go to see how things are going with her trying to figure things out. He is good amen ha!

A word I heard about the season of pruning at KHOP back on my birthday has really been a perfect representation of what I’ve been through this year. God will put us in these seasons to test us, He does that you know.

James 1:2-4 (The Passion Translation…I’ve been diggin this version lately lol)

My fellow believers, when it seems as though you are facing nothing but difficulties see it as an invaluable opportunity to experience the greatest joy that you can! For you know that when your faith is tested it stirs up power within you to endure all things. And then as your endurance grows even stronger it will release perfection into every part of your being until there is nothing missing and nothing lacking.

He trusts us enough to put us in these tough test because He knows we are going to rely on Him even more and our faith will increase during these times. It is a time of growing closer to Him and a time of growth for time beyond the present. I’m someone who isn’t good at test or likes them or studies for them but I want to “study”and ace these tests.

John 15: 1-4 (TPT)

I am a true sprouting vine, and the farmer who tends the vine is my Father. He cares for the branches connected to me by lifting and propping up the fruitless branches and pruning every fruitful branch to yield a greater harvest. The words I have spoken over you have already cleansed you. So you must remain in life-union with me, for I remain in life-union with you. For as a branch severed from the vine will not bear fruit, so your life will be fruitless unless you live your life intimately joined to mine.

Most of the things that I have been in prayer about have been things that are going to make me better for those further in the future times. You know shaping me into a better Godly man that seeks Him first, be obedient, leading others, love those that surround me and all that good stuff. I’ve been growing in ways I wouldn’t have been able to if I was in Australia. Like being more of an “adult” with finances and just how I’m livin. Learning how to adapt to new areas and new places.

There has been times that it’s been rougher than others like I was down a few weeks ago but His joy filled me up through worshiping and hangin with my good friend Jason. Since then things have been solid….PTL.

So I have felt strongly about just moving to Dallas, Tampa or Miami and kind of putting myself in a place where I’ll enjoy living and just figure things out from there. I know not the best strategy to wing it, but just starting to make moves I hope will start to lead to open doors and being able to start enjoying whatever it may be. Then I may go back to school to be a teacher (pretty much so I could coach baseball) but not sure I really want to do that at this time so I don’t know we’ll see. My crepe shop is always an option, my business plan is done besides some editing to it ha.

My lease ends at the end of July so I’ve got a few months left in Kalamazoo. It’s gonna be interesting for sure, I guess I’ll just have to wait to see how things are gonna turn out…

“His praise endures forever, what that means is when we praise that activity will endure. Your circumstance your feelings whatever your going through that won’t endure but His praise will endure. What gets us through today is tapping into those eternal realities that He endures forever.” – Michael Miller

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The Decision

No not that decision (insert LeBron leaving reference), I’m talking about jobs man. My oh my how time has flown by these past few years. Seems like just the other day I was deciding where to go to college. Somehow Bowling Green State University came out on top, so glad that I decided to go here. I have meet some amazing friends and have had an incredible time here at BGSU. Yeah I did go here for school, at times it doesn’t seem so haha. Oddly enough that’s why I decided to go here for their sport management program. Truthfully, I coast by in my classes, I did that in high school and said I would change in college but that didn’t happen ha. Well things became more important to me and so did my time devoted to those things. Yeah I always make jokes with my friends about not going to class, I actually do go…unless it’s really nice out then I don’t see the point haha. I always think in my head of this scale of importance of things like #1 is Jesus and all that stuff #2 is working out #3 volunteering in athletic communications #4 is my surf club (unfortunately I’m not longer president) and finally #5 is actually school. Yeah I’m going into my last semester (crossing fingers ha I’ll be good). I’ve had senioritis since I stepped onto this campus, I want to get out of Ohio and graduating from here will give me the freedom to get a job lol or whatever else I’m going to do anywhere I want.

I have so much on my mind on what I want to get into and just do it all but I can’t do it all which is a bummer. Just wish I didn’t have any college debit, thanks for being so expensive really helping me out ;). Paying back this debit is going to blow a big one and damper plans that I have. This is why I’m most likely going to try and look for a job in sport management for the time being once I graduate so I have a set salary and can pay off that debt. But I don’t want to do that forever. Like I really want to maybe intern with YWAM (Youth With a Mission), the Circuit Riders, or go on staff with FCA (Fellowship for Christian Athletes) or Athletes in Action. The worse thing about missions is that you have to raise support and like I feel like I should pay off my debt before diving into the missions field. It’s unfortunate because that’s what I’m more passionate about and want to go right in but it seems to be a lot more difficult to pay off my debt while trying to raise support instead of having a set salary knowing how much I’ll have. Like I don’t want money to have such an impact on this decision but it is for some reason. I know God will provide and I don’t want to fear not being able to pay off this debt because the only fear I should have is of God. It’s just nuts yo, ummm I know like I can live on mission at my work place but just feel the call to have bigger presence in the mission’s field more so than just in my work place.

I just don’t value most things that the typical college graduate does I guess, I’m not that big into money and material things. I want to see this world change man, like we’ve all seen how messed up this world is and how our country is falling. Our country needs to turn back to God! I can’t just be okay with sitting still and not seeing revival continue to break out through this country. But like having to pay the man (lol) back I feel is bringing me down because I want to get rid of this debt then go straight into it but can’t wait. Uh decisions decisions.