Rooted

 

 

I have noticed a trend recently, not sure why I did not figure it out sooner during the year I’ve been here in Kzoo. Well, I kept recognizing it but now am realizing that it has purposely stuck out more than anything else. That thing is intimacy with God. Books I’ve been reading, sermons I’ve heard, words that have been given to me and some other things just have all been pointing to intimacy.

I finished up my internship at WMU the other day (s/o #WeWillReign) and realizing early that this gig wasn’t for me forced me to look inside and figure out my passions and go from there. Over and over the Lord kept revealing those to me and not till few months ago did I pick up on it ha. This year probably has been the most time I have spent in my prayer room with Him. During these times of intimacy, these passions and dreams have been shown to me and I have started to think of what it would look like to go after them and pursue them more than I have had before. Sitting at a desk, typing a whole lot and not having much of an impact besides on my co-workers (which is awesome) really wasn’t what I was looking for in my career. I’m more of a relational person and want to have a bigger impact on the youth and what not.

Anyway back to intimacy, I’m always trying to grow my gift of words and knowledge and hearing from the Lord and I’ve read books by Shawn Bolz (highly recommend) and Michael Koulianos that have been super helpful, knowledgeable and practical. Like the theme of those books really have been being more intimate with God. Koulianos’ book is more about Holy Spirit than words of knowledge but anyway here is a quote I liked from it, “I would give Him my attention. I would talk to Him, speak to Him and worship, and He would distract me with His beauty. His presence became so overwhelming that I forgot about my struggles. As we tend to the presence of the Lord, our struggles die on their own.”  He then references Ezekiel 36: 26-27. The more time we spend in His presence the more He is going to reveal Himself to you and even reveal more of your true self to you. I don’t have my Shawn Bolz book with my right meow but he had a bunch of quotes about being intimate with the Father. This verse is HUGE in my opinion…pretty much sums it all up!

Matthew 11:27 (The Passion Translation) 

 “You have entrusted me with all that you are and all that you have. No one fully and intimately knows the Son except the Father. And no one fully and intimately knows the Father except the Son. But the Son is able to unveil the Father to anyone he chooses.”

I feel like at times that people have made the Christian life a lot more complicated than it is…it’s about Christ ha. It’s about getting to know Him and to live like Him! Growing in our intimacy with Him is going to make us know and live like Him. Anyone knows that the more time you spend with someone the more you will know them lol. If we are truly in this relationship with Him that should be the goal right? The Gospel is about knowing God (insert KGP booklet haha #CruLife) and His wonderful plan for your life. Since we have fallen short of the glory of the Lord, the only way that we can know God is through His son Jesus and receive Him.

Yeah mon, there just is something you can’t explain when your in His presence, receive a word for someone, see healing, or what have you. Even more so when there is a small group of people just going after it, whether its in a prayer room setting, in a church or in a sketchy college house that could break at any moment (s/o Arubbah House).

I have been in Song of Soloman and I’m a little biased toward The Passion Translation but it paints a beautiful picture of how God feels about his Bride.

Song of Soloman 4:7-8 (TPT)

“Every part of you is so beautiful, my darling. Perfect is your beauty, without flaw within. Now you are ready, my bride, to come with me as we climb the highest peaks together. Come with me through the archway of trust. We will look down from the crest of the glistening mounts and from the summit of our sublime sanctuary. Together we will wage war in the lion’s den and the leopard’s lair as they watch nightly for their prey.”

So yeah intimacy is so important if we truly want to follow Christ, I was listening to one of UPPERROOM’s prayer sets and one of people said, “I want to be so close to Him that I can smell His breath” haha come on, I love that, nothing but good comes from God so His breath has to smell amazing lol, I’m thinking like a combo of meat cooking and lavender haha.

There are always songs that you can just FEEL something when you listen to it. Whether that is a worship song or whatever music your into. I love that music has such a cool impact on people and moves in our souls. This song has been one of those, I just long for more when I hear it.

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Career vs. Heart

This title kind of sums up a lot of what has been on my mind lately. Questions like, What should I do after college? Is this decision the best for my future? How is God going to use this? and How can I fix this situation?, just have been running through my mind constantly. I’m coming to the point in my life where I’m going to actually have to get a “big boy” job (not the restaurant lol, that ship has already sailed haha).

Currently, I’m going to school for a degree in Sport Management…simply because I love sports and at the time of deciding on a major nothing else really seemed interesting to me. When I made this decision I just began my life as a Christian so I wasn’t sure on how that would play into my career or most of my life, I was still trying to figure it all out.

My classes honestly haven’t helped much (some have been really good though), in terms of preparing me for working in the sport industry. I don’t think I’m going to need to tell someone what type of sporting event we are putting on or anything of that nature. Volunteering with the ticket office and athletic communication departments at school have really given me an idea of what it will look like working in this industry. I have gained a lot of valuable experiences and teachable moments during my time spent at both of these departments. I can totally see myself working in the sport industry and being a light wherever I am and just loving on everyone that I work with. On the other hand, I can see myself maybe going into ministry and working for organizations like Athletes in Action or FCA, or maybe be an entrepreneur and open a surf shop, coffee shop, or bar (or a shop with all 3 in 1 ha).

The Jesus Factor is something that has changed my life a lot. Growing in my faith and learning more about it has changed my perspective of life and how it should be lived. Without Jesus in my life I was more concerned with making money, living somewhere warm (that still sounds awesome), and basically focusing on things of this world that now just don’t seem that appealing to me. Money is a big factor in this and the thing is it’s not even my money, it’s God’s money he has chosen to give it to me for me to spend wisely. We…well at least I know that I don’t need a whole bunch of money to be satisfied and be happy in life, sure you can buy more things but do those things last forever? My typical grocery bill for the month is around $35, I go out to eat maybe once a week for $10-$15, and then rent for me is around $300. Besides feeding myself and having a place to live I don’t need a lot of money for everything else. Sure I’ll get some new clothes, books, or vinyls every once in a while but I don’t need them. So yeah the more I’ve grown the more I’ve realized this, also when I went to the Dominican Republic seeing the happiness that they had even though they didn’t have much really showed me to revalue things in life.

Having been put in this confusing season of life has really made me think of what can I do to best serve God wherever he places me. Even if I don’t go into ministry I know God will place me somewhere I can best serve Him and show His love to everyone I work with and come in contact with.

Having said all that…telling my parents that I don’t have the same idea of what they envision me doing in life has really made our relationship tough. We had an intense conversation about this topic and we are complete opposites of what we feel my life should look like. It’s just a weird thing to try to explain to them because they just kept getting more frustrated with me. I just think of Acts 1:7 “He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority.” God has a plan for this relationship to get better and for them to know Him, I just have to not be anxious about it and let God do his thing because it’s in his time not ours.

This topic will probably continue to be prevalent in my life for awhile because it’s just the time in my life where I start seeing what I could maybe do and try things out to see if this is where God wants me. For now I’m just going to be praying about it and getting as much feedback from mentors and friends as I can.

Peace be with you

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”